“If people let government decide what foods they eat and what medicines they take, their bodies will soon be in as sorry a state as are the souls of those who live under tyranny.” Thomas Jefferson
Saturday, September 29, 2012
I Won't Do That Again
Since we are culling our goat herd pretty hard this year, we decided to try and sell of couple of the young bucklings to help pay for a new wood stove. I won't do that again. I feel awful. One of my whole things about what we do is that the animals I raise even for meat never understand fear. They are never mistreated, always given kind scratches and well to make it short pampered right up to the moment that their life ends. They never are afraid. Well, I really only wanted to sell a couple of the bucklings and keep one. I had someone call and ask about one. Then he called and wanted all three. I stupidly agreed. He came out this afternoon to pick up the boys. First he had cages in the back of his truck that were held together with a lick and a promise. I got the boys from the barn with a bit of a heavy heart. He snatched the first from me by a hind leg and dumped him upside down in one cage. Then repeated the process for the next boy. The third boy he almost broke his neck trying to shove him in the cage upside down by one leg while his horn was stuck in the rattle trap cage and couldn't physically go in. My boys were terrified. They cried. And I did nothing. I had the power at that point to stop the sale and take my boys back...and I didn't. Now I feel awful. I feel horrible. I feel like I let those babies down. I will never ever do that again. I know that he said that he would keep them and feed them up a little bigger before butchering them and I can only imagine the treatment that my babies are going to receive. I can only imagine the fear that they will experience. I want to call the man up and get my boys back. I wonder if he would even give them back. I can't believe I did this. I not only let those little goats down, but I let myself and what I believe down too. I really don't like myself very much right now and I am really worried about my boys. So many questions are running through my mind about their well being. I really didn't have to sell them, but dummy me thought it would be a good idea since we didn't really need the meat nor have room for everything in the freezer. I could have canned the meat. I could have just waited until I had room. I won't be selling any more bucklings!