Today's Quote

“If people let government decide what foods they eat and what medicines they take, their bodies will soon be in as sorry a state as are the souls of those who live under tyranny.” Thomas Jefferson

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Back Pain

I live with pain on a daily basis and can usually muster the stubbornness to get through it and get what I need to get done. This is different. This is debilitating. This pain is crippling. I don't know what I have done or how it could have happened since I was taking a couple of easy days resting on the couch with the heating pad and doing some mending that needed to be done. I worked really hard getting everything outside taken care of before this storm we were supposed to have and never did. I was sore and my body was whooped. So, I did the basic chores and decided a couple of days on the couch doing some writing and mending wouldn't hurt. I was wrong. Yesterday afternoon I started to get excruciating pain in my lower back. I couldn't get comfortable and the heat from the heating pad just seemed to make it worse. By last night I could barely walk. If I attempt to stand up straight, my legs give way and I fall. This morning I can walk around the house only if I stay hunched over and hold onto something because my back can't hold me up. What has happened to me? And what am I gonna do? If I can just make it through today, then my husband is off the next two days and will be home. I hope I will be better by then, but after not being better this morning I don't have high hopes. I wish I knew what was going on and if I am not even slightly better tomorrow I am going to have him take me to the doctor. I doubt at this point that I could even drive because I have no strength in my back, which means moving my legs is not very easy. I am trying to figure out how I am going to get out to the barn to milk and feed. That is the one thing that I am kicking myself for right now. I have been putting off teaching my oldest how to milk and getting the girls used to her milking when I can't. So I am the only one who can milk and someway, somehow I am going to have to get out to that barn and do just that. She can feed, but only I can milk. So ladies, take this from my experience.....teach someone else in your family to milk and make sure the girls will allow them to do just that. I also needed to make cheese today and I made broth yesterday that needs to be canned today. I took some robaxin last night, hoping that would relax the muscles and help. It didn't. I also took a Lortab which would normally knock me out in a second since I rarely even take anything for a headache. It didn't even touch the pain level. The pain in my shoulder is gone though! I am trying to move around a little to keep from getting stove up and not being able to move at all. My legs are still giving way though. I am praying that the Lord gives me the strength to get through morning chores and that this is something simple that will heal with rest. To be honest, this is humbling and scary. I have always been such an independent, strong willed person. I have always managed to do what I need to do despite pain or injury. This is the first time in my life that I can't do that. No matter how much I want to or how determined I am, my body won't. Here is hoping that your day is better than mine is looking to be and that none of you have to go through this. Blessings from the farm, Kat


teekaroo said...

Oh, hon, I hope you get feeling better. I hate when my body decides not to work right.

Tammi said...

I sure hope and pray you are feeling better soon. I have a lot of back problems myself and understand what you are going through.

Kelle said...

Kat, we're praying for you and I can somewhat relate, although my back pain doesn't sound nearly as hash as yours. I'm sorry you are suffering so and we'll pray it corrects itself and you are able to get the things done that you need to. Sounds like the sciatic nerve is involved and maybe a piece of a disc has broken loose and is causing problems, my Dh has this problem every so often. His one leg will go entirely numb and he simply has to drag it about until things get better. Surgery will be the solution, our Dr. says we're to young to start doing back surgeries on, so until we can no longer stand it. Sounds like you may be at this point.
Our prayers and HUGS,